As 2010 comes to an end we hear of peoples’ plans to change for the “new year” and all I can wonder is why wait to change? I’m sure a couple of your friends have already explained this whole concept to you and what not but it baffles me as to why people need a reason to change. The reason for you should be to change and to grow. I believe the growth as an individual results from the amount of change in his/her life. You want to change for the better and not for the worst. If you can remember that than I most definitely think you are on your way to living a happier life.
I just want to jot down a few things that has happened to me this year because I believe it is a perfect way of explaining the paragraph above. This year I have literally tried to force myself to LIVE a hearlther lifestyle, meaning eating healthier and excercising regularly. I failed many times but I kept trying. I wanted to develop some habits that would stick with me for the rest of my life. I didn’t need the year to end to make this choice for myself, I chose to do it and I am definitely sticking by it. I must say it gets pretty tough, that is pertaining to eating healthy. Food costs so much when you try to eat exclusively at home and avoiding any fast-food restaurants but in the long run I know I definitely will be happy that I chose to eat healthier. Some positive results to this change in my life? I have definitely felt much more energetic and happy! I guess one way to explain being more energetic is that I would be able to stay away in all of my classes! I would start class at 8am this semester and I would be able to stay away through them all! I even felt happy going to class even if it becomes such a day-to-day grind sort of thing. I also want to achieve that physique! (Insert Brad Pitt fight club picture here)
Leaving my so-called “home.” I knew it was bound to happen once again after having several disputes with my mom. I left my home seriously not knowing where I would end up because I seriously refuse to ask for help when it comes down to things like this. I am truly blessed to have the friends that I have as cliché as it sounds but I have to give credit where credit is due. My friends were quick to help me with my situation and my girlfriend’s parents have seriously taken me under their wing. I am able to live with my girlfriend free of charge. Yesterday I thought I was going to be asked to talk to my mom (which I certainly have no plan on doing so) and make-up so that I could be with my family but I was certainly wrong. Her mom told me that I am able to stay as long as I need and that wasnt even the surprise. The surprise was that they wanted to add me under their auto. insurance so that I would be able to drive their cars. Of course I told them I didn’t have a stable enough job to pay them monthly and what not but they said “don’t worry about that, you save your money so you can have some fun one day with janelle.” I honestly didn’t know what to say and I walked to the car to head to our secret santa party. Its really surprised me how I have been able to get by without my mom. When you can’t rely on your parent like me, you are forced to become a stronger individual and that is what I have certainly become. I believe that what I did was one of the best decisions I have ever made. Although my grammy and others look down upon it, I believe it will lead me to becoming a happer person and probably a more successful person. I can say that I am literally growing up. Making decisions that affect your life dramatically separates you from that “teen” to becoming your own “adult.” I honestly have no plans of speaking to my mother and I have been able to keep in contact with my brother whom I still think of. I guess you can say that I have learned to literally follow my heart when it comes to decision making.
Staying above the influence. I used to be an individual that was proud to consume alcohol but since I have been trying to find better habits I stay away from alcohol. There are plenty of fun things you can do with your friends that don’t need alcohol or weed or (insert drug of your choice here). I will try my best to have fun with my friends without the need of alcohol! I am glad I went back to my above the influence thinking just like in high school. And to you drinkers, Alcohol makes you fat! It is unneeded calories! Go eat something worth the calories instead! I won’t be elitist because I do not control your life. Just don’t let things go overboard. Drink in consideration and most definitely not for the wrong reasons. Celebrate with the ones you love!
Last but not least the most challenging for me is to become a better individual as a whole. I have held grudges, I have done my share of shit-talking, my share of not being a true friend, and my share of wrong doings. I am human and by all means am not perfect. I want to become a better person. I want to be at peace with everyone and definitely want to be at peace with myself. I have found the limits and effects of emotions on my body and to my mind. I definitely do not want to go there again. I have been angry, jealous, and definitely sad. I want to stay a happy person and most definitely do not want to undergo any unneeded stress. I know how my body handles to certain situations and I do not want my body to go through those things again.
I have grown a lot this year and I am proud of myself. I surrounded myself with some new friends and have been able to keep my close friends. I have felt some awkward feelings go away with some people I had trouble with and if that is one step in making everything better than I will continue on trying to make peace with that person. Don’t let the end of 2010 be the reason you want to change. Change for yourself. Change for the better and with that I say GOOD LUCK!
I still have some resolutions I want to post just because! (yeah yeah hypocrite!)
->Obtain a Full-Time Job ($$$)
->Purchase my own car!
->Get better in basketball! Win our basketball league!
->3.6+ GPA this Spring semester!
->To stay the caring and truthful boyfriend that I am.
->Reach new limits in working out! (@smokydabear @sinville @sirapnaj)
—>Picture thing like @sinville!
->Project 365! (that picture everyday thing!)
->Get through this year on my own.
->Sprint twice a week! Body conditioning.
->Blog more. (Hi Livejournal!) & definitely read more.
——->Of course, Live life, try new things, and to stay on track in the pursuit of happyness.
So if you’re one of my friends just try to hold me to this! It’s going to take some work but I will try! I will definitely try to hold you to your resolutions. I would like to thank you 2010 for your presence. Come on 2011! Bring on the good times!